Saturday, January 24, 2009

Finding Myself, and Rocking it out

So, this post is neither about Knitting or about Archaeology.... So if you're interested in either, just backpedal out now, However, this needed to be written somewhere.

It is, however about me figuring out some things about myself the last couple of weeks. I think I finally hit something today, heard a quote, from an interview given by David Bowie, "Religion is for people who believe in hell, Spirituality is for people who have been there"
I think that really kind of sums up how I feel I have really stopped considering myself a religious person, perhaps because I learned early on that life is finite, that the bad stuff in life comes with equal frequency to the good, and that no matter what it comes, often when you least expect it. However, I still believe I'm a spiritual person, I find I look at some things and just with faith believe they will work out. I could not do that for a long time, for a wile thought hat the end meant the end.... I don't feel that way so much any more. Though, I think we keep coming back around, reliving lives until we can somehow reconcile all the pieces of ourselves.... I've realized that life works in mysterious ways and I'm ok with that now.

Its funny that finding the music of one person, and listening deep down can affect a person so much, but I think that is the point in some ways. I think the fact that a lot of Bowie's music has to do with being an outsider, on the edge of "normal" society has a lot to do with why it speaks to me, little in my life has been "normal" and I'm ok with that, but sometimes when you see "normal" people doing "normal things" it makes you stop and re-evaluate, but more and more I'm realizing that I'm ok with not being "normal" and if I never meet the perfect guy, get married and have an average of 2.5 kids I don't mind, heck, if my only role is the one I've played I'm ok with that too. Sometimes, you can't plan life, sometimes you just have to roll with the waves or get swept off your feet.

And to close, take from this what you will:

"It amazes me sometimes that even intelligent people will analyze a situation or make a judgement after only recognizing the standard or traditional structure of a piece".~ by David Bowie

1 comment:

Trish-tricoteuse said...

Ok, this resonated so deeply with me that I just had to say thank you for writing and I'm fascinated by your profession. As a technical writer I'm trapped in a cube farm.

Be grateful every day that you get to spend some of the year out of doors.